Donatas: I was wrong thinking that I was meditating the Dynamic totally because that totality came through my efforts, through ego. After few months of meditating the Dynamic at Ojas Meditation Center in the mornings, I felt the presence of another, inner totality that comes unexpectedly and only in relaxation. The deeply touching experience was the Dynamic led by Prembuda.

In the summer of 2018, the time came when I felt that relationships, travelling, delicious food, and other pleasures of life started bringing less and less joy. Not only that they were bringing less joy, but they started causing problems, stress, and often pain. After breaking down a relationship that lasted 7 years, I felt like time is running out, I am getting older, but nothing beautiful was happening in my life. I was living in illusions and sank deeper and deeper into the swamp of blame, pain and fear. I started visiting the Meditation Center "The Way of Love".

I liked being there. Meditation evenings took place, and different spiritual teachers were coming. The most profound experience was a 6-day Primal Therapy workshop in October 2019 lead by Prem Sambhava. After the seminar, I felt much lighter, happier, livelier, and more real. I even started thinking that I "washed myself," cried everything out, saw the causes of pain, and now I am going to live happily. Time showed that I was wrong, that the pain wasn't gone, that there are even deeper places that I haven't felt and reached, and I even didn't suspect their existence.

I felt that Osho Dynamic Meditation appeals to me. While meditating it, I could release my emotions, cry out. I remember that it took much effort to jump for 10 minutes and not to move during the stop stage with my hands raised up for 15 minutes. During meditation there were moments that inspired and relaxed. After the Dynamic I felt certain easiness for a while, but usually not for long. Sometimes I felt tired after the Dynamic. I felt that I am stuck on the surface, but I wasn't conscious of that.

The thought that I need to put my efforts to meditate the Dynamic supported me further. And the other thought that I am meditating consoled me. I watched videos on YouTube where different sannyasins were explaining how to meditate Osho Dynamic Meditation, but because of that I could not meditate the Dynamic easier.

I received an invitation to lead the Osho Dynamic Meditation once or twice a week at the center "The Way of Love". I agreed, even though I felt uncomfortable, I felt like I wasn't ready for that. I thought that these are my fears and here is a great opportunity to go through them. If new people came to meditate the Dynamic, I explained the stages and course of the Dynamic and we meditated.

The thought that I need to put my efforts to meditate the Dynamic supported me further. And the other thought that I am meditating consoled me. I watched videos on YouTube where different sannyasins were explaining how to meditate Osho Dynamic Meditation, but because of that I could not meditate the Dynamic easier.

I received an invitation to lead the Osho Dynamic Meditation once or twice a week at the center "The Way of Love". I agreed, even though I felt uncomfortable, I felt like I wasn't ready for that. I thought that these are my fears and here is a great opportunity to go through them. If new people came to meditate the Dynamic, I explained the stages and course of the Dynamic and we meditated.

It was the spring of 2021. I remember my interest when in February I saw online that there would be the 21-day spring cycle of the Dynamic Meditation at Ojas Meditation Center. At that time, I felt tired of online self-education seminars and events. I know how to meditate the Dynamic, I thought. I'll go.                

My imagination that I know how to meditate crumbled quickly. It was very strange after I started attending the 21-day cycle of Dynamic Meditation at Ojas Meditation Center. During the meditation, the hall appeared too quiet, too calm, I barely heard others breathing. It bothered me. I was used to very strong, energetic and loud breathing, catharsis, jumping. It took time to start meditating the Dynamic properly. I was wrong thinking that I was meditating the Dynamic totally, because that totality came through effort, through the ego. [from mind – editor's note].

Donatas meditated and shared after the 21-day ycle of Osho Dynamic Meditation in 2021.

Few months later when meditating the Dynamic at Ojas Center I felt the presence of another, inner totality that comes unexpectedly and only in relaxation.

The deeply touching experience was the Dynamic led by Prembuda. During the meditation, I heard the words of Prembuda, I don't know how, but those words hit me like an arrow at the target and suppressed tears and emotions exploded in my body. And there were times when the words of master relaxed and allowed me to fall deeper, where there are no thoughts, or helped me to merge with and dissolve into music and dance.

When meditating the Dynamic at Ojas Meditation Center every morning I succeed to get into the deeper space where there isn't annoying noise of thoughts. That space resembles a wavy sea. A wave catches and carries…, no need to do anything, only enjoy. I never know at which point of meditation this wave will catch me and how long it will fly me.

I noticed that maybe only after a year of meditating properly each morning, I reach more often the space where no efforts are needed. When breathing, jumping and dancing during meditation become good or even blissful, tears flow not out of pain but out of joy.

Only now I have seen that huge difference between the words "do meditation" or "meditate". So, I'm not surprised at all why many people who try meditating the Dynamic on their own and usually in a wrong way quickly forget about it. Write it off as tedious, requiring good physical preparation and effort. In the beginning, doing meditation through efforts was tiring. And now meditating is much easier, more sensitive and fresher.

Here is one of Osho Dynamic Meditations led by Prembuda, in which Donatas also meditates.

I will share what helps me learn to meditate properly. Deep vision and insights of master Prembuda are of huge assistance. The presence of a master in one space during meditation helps me not to fall asleep, not to go with my imaginations and thoughts. Also helps a special and supportive space that is at Ojas Meditation Center, where I can come to meditate every morning. It is amazing that I can meditate with sannyasins who have been meditating and integrating meditation into life for many years.

The raising lightness and joy of meditating the Dynamic inspires and encourages me to go even deeper. The beginning of my road was false and required much effort. And now the journey is becoming more and more inspiring, sunny and easy. I am happy and continue my journey at Ojas Meditation Center.

Donatas June 03, 2022

Comment of Ojas Meditation Center: It doesn't matter where you start and continue meditations. It is important that you discover the right meditation - light, relaxed, cleansing, very healing, and blissful. So far, unfortunately, only Prembuda, who has been living for over 30 years without a sick-leave day and any misfortune at the Ojas Meditation Center, meditates and teaches meditation in this way. Only in this way meditated Osho Dynamic Meditation has chances to spread around the world and change it!

Let's heal, delight and bless ourselves and others with Osho Dynamic meditation! Please join!

Ojas Meditation Center, June 03, 2022