ON CELIBATE VOWS AND LIFE

I have taken the vow to remain celibate my whole life, but why do I still suffer from sexual thoughts, fantasies and dreams?* (Part 2 of 3)

<...> Just the last week I was reading about one yogi, Dhirendra Brahmachari, who goes on showing his yoga postures on the television. And he was telling the last week to his audience that, ”Do you know how I remain so healthy? I am pulling my anus upwards right now, but you cannot see it because I am wearing clothes.” And then he told that his disciple, one girl who sits by his side to show yoga postures, ”She is also holding her anus upwards, but you cannot see because she is wearing the clothes.” The girl must have gone red! It is good that India has not yet gone for color TV – in black and white you cannot see whether the girl is blushing or not. But then you have to do all kinds of nonsense things. Now pulling your anus upwards will simply force your sexual energy to go into your head; that’s what its purpose is. It is trying to bring the sexuality towards the head, and you will be more in a danger. And that’s the purpose of sirshasana, headstand. Standing on your head, the basic purpose is to force your sexual energy to go towards your head. Because of gravitation, if you stand on your head naturally your sexual energy starts moving towards the head. But how long you can stand on your head? Sooner or later you will have to stand on your feet.

And this messing around with centers is one of the problems all the religions have been facing. Gurdjieff, one of the great Masters of this age, used to say that man has become so ugly for the simple reason because none of his centers is functioning in a natural way; every center is being interfered with by other centers, they have all become entangled. His whole effort was how to disentangle them, how to bring the energy to each center that belongs to it. And that’s my effort here too: to bring the energy to the right center, where it belongs. When all your centers are functioning naturally you will have a deep silence in you, you will have a subtle harmony in your being; a joy will surround you. Nityananda Giri, you must have lived according to the old, traditional way; your name shows that. Gin is one of the most ancient traditions of Hindu sannyasins; you will have to come out of it. You will have to come out of your orthodoxy, out of your superstitions.

An elderly spinster went to see her doctor and complained that her sleep was being disturbed by dreams of a young man who was constantly following her and flirting with her. The doctor prescribed some pills, but a couple of weeks later she was back. ”What is the matter now?” he asked gently. ”You are sleeping better now, aren’t you?” ”No,” she said, ”Now I can’t sleep because I miss that young man so much!”

Life cannot be avoided easily. The only way to go beyond is to go through. Life is an opportunity to grow – do not avoid it. If you avoid it you will remain retarded.

Now what is happening to you cannot happen to any of my sannyasins, it is impossible – because my sannyasins are living naturally, accepting whatsoever God has given. He knows better than you. If he has given you a sexuality, then it means that there is something to be learned through it. It is your creative energy – don’t repress it. Refine it, certainly, make it as pure as possible, because it is your sexual energy which will create many things in your life. This is a well known fact, that great poets naturally find that they are transcending their sexuality. Great painters, great dancers, great musicians have always found it to go beyond sex very easily – but not the so-called monks and the saints. They have found just the opposite: the more they have tried, the more they were disillusioned, the more they got deeper into the mess.

* - Excerpt from Osho video discourse „I am that“.